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cheshmam kho0ne bas ke gerye kardam. chera enghad delamo mishkani akhe bi ensaf?chera harfamo nemifahmi bi vojdan?chandvaght bayad beso0zamo besazamo hichi nagam?yadete behet goftam bi liyaghat? are goftam chon karat nesho0nam mide to arzeshe hich chiziro nemifahmi. faghat to0 gozashtati mesle yek adami ke divanast. khastam kardi bas ke be khatere kaso nakas gerye kardio del tangi vali yekbar behem nagofti delet bara man tang shode. khaste shodam bas ke delet bara hame so0kht vali hatta yek zaream delet be hale in hame zolmi ke dari dar hagham mikoni naso0khto yek nega nakardi. to hamishe baara hamei ella o0n kasi ke vaghean bayad bashi. chand vahte dagho0nam .hame fahmidan. do0stam. hame. vali che mishe kard? bayad cheshmamo ro0 hamechi bebandamo begam : in niz bogzarad dige vaghean akhare khat residam. dige vaghean nemito0nam ba in vaz kenar biyam. tanham gozashti. khiyanat kardi. del be yeki difge basti. doro0gh gofti. dige basame, dige nemito0nam bepaziram ke bebakhsham, albate chera , mibakhsham :( nabakhsham chi kar konam, yekiro ke bishtar nadaram, hamaro be khateret pas zadam, hatta kasayiro ke baram mohem bo0dan, vali bazam to az akhar adam nashodi,delam dige lehe, az bas ke mishkanisho sare hamesh mikoni dige jayi namo0nde ke salem bashe to0 delam, man mesle mashinayi shodam ke miran zire tereylio dorost beshi nistan. man yek adame tanham, yeki  ke hichkio nadare saresho bezare ro0 sho0nasho gerye kone:( kheyli dagho0nam khoda. komakam kon...

mido0nam....mido0nam

vase eshghe to amma mikho0nam...eshghe man

mido0nam to0 kare in eshgh mimo0nam mido0nam im dafaro nemito0nam....

mido0nam  be paye in eshgh miso0zam

man to0 majaraye in eshgh miso0zam....miso0zam

eshghe man.....mido0nam.....miso0zam

mido0nam ke daram kam miyaram....man mitarsamo jorat nadaram

mido0nam akharaesh jo0namo paye in eshghe adamkosh mizaram...mido0nam

mido0nam dige khabam nemibare ,mido0nam saniyeham nemigzare....mido0nam

mido0nam ke geryeham bi asare...delet az cheshmaye man bikhabare...eshghe man....eshghe man...eshghe man...mido0nam

salam be hamegi baz man o0madam yek seri chiz benvisam khob bezarin az emro0z begam barato0n ! man emro0z sa@te 11 bidar shodam kholase inke bidar shodamo yek chizi khordamo badesh neshestam paye computer ta hamin alan! yek 5 sa@ti mishe kholase jo0nam barato0n bege ke halam gereftast kholase inke halam kh0ob nist chera akhe hamash man bayad hese bad behem dast bede akhe?!mido0ni baz chi shod?yadesh kardam :( delam barash tang shod ....mitarsam bere :((( eykhoda akharesh man khodamo mikosham...hala in soale man az shoma age in matno kho0ndin...farz kon ba yeki do0sti kheyliyam do0stesh dari vali taraf ghablan ba yeki do0st bo0deke in veleto0n nemikoneo har saniye ke yadesh miofti hes mikoni dare azat migire eshgheto... chi kar mikoni?! :( vaghean chikar

dobare yek hese jadid yek ehsase bad

hamechiro kharab kard

chejo0ri behet begam narahat

misham?chejo0ri behet begam male man bash

faghate faghate faghat?

chera hazer nisti daste rad be sineye

kasayi ke daran hamechiro kharab

 mikonan bezani?chera?dige dari

nabo0dam mikoni torokhoda befahm

mano torokhoda ...

rastesho bekhayn dige az inke ro0 bargehaye daftarcheye khateratam khaterate talkhamo benvisam khaste shodam ba khodam goftam inja minvisam harvaghta bekham rahat baresh midaram ke mesle daftarcheye khateratam ro0 safhash hack nashe ke nashe karish kard akhe pakono ghalatgiram dige nemito0ne pakesho0n kone dardaye mano.

gahi oghat ba khodam migam khosh bakht tarinam vali bazi vaghta migam badbakht tarin gahi oghat enghad mikhandam ke miterkam gahi oghat enghad gerye mikonam ke saram miterke khob inam ro0zegare bisaro3dast dige!che mishe kard.hala bikhiyale in mozo0ha,  beza beram sare asle matlab :

dastan az vaghti shoro0 shod ke hes kardam yeki dige hast khodesh mige nist vali mitarsam akhe do0sesh daram nemito0nam bebinam az dastam bere khoda khodesh mido0ne age behem began jo0neto bede barash midam montaha nemifahme cheghad d0osesh daram gahi oghat ba khodam migam mizaratam mire vali baz migam na nemire do0sam dare dige nemito0nam ba hichki harf bezanam ,engar zabo0nam avaz shode kasi halishe nemishe ,ba khodam migam divo0ne ghose nakhor 2 ro0ze donya tamo0m mishe vali baz migam na in 2 ro0z jo0n migire ta tamo0m she ,ta hala hes kardi be yeki yek alame nazdikiyaaaaaaaa vali azash yek alame do0ri mikhaysh mikhadet vali mitarsi behesh naresi ! 

mibini hatta nemito0nam begam cheme ah faghat yek chiziro mido0nam o0nam ineke do0sesh daram faghat hamin!